coming together

haven't been on this for a while, but i feel like i'm getting my act together. slowly, but i am. i started actually reading the material that we are supposed to read. i guess it's homework, i usually never did my homework like that, only if it was very important, they i would do something, but now i've been doing it for 3 days straight. idgaf what you think to me it's progress. i usually don't need to read whatever they give us cause i can talk my way out of anything they ask me so it's usually quiet for homework as far as i'm concerned..or it was i guess.

the best thing about it is that i didn't even plan it. i just kinda started doing a spanish translation thing once and then i thought 'why don't i try to do everything that i have to do for tomorrow and see what happens'. shit felt good tbh. i wasn't insecure and it felt pretty tight i can't lie.
although i do my homework now(really want to see how long i can keep up and shit) it's still my last priority. i've been doing the shit at 11-2am  for the past 3 days. it's cool though i'm used to not getting much sleep.
-side note-
i feel like i evolved with my beats. i learned to mix a bit better now and i feel confident about the way i lay drums and chords. i kinda trained myself to not doubt something if i feel like it sounds good. actually, i didn't train myself. it really just naturally came, its tight.
-side note 2-

i want to buy a sony handycam and film some shit, maybe make music videos for some of my favorite songs, just cause. i found this really cool place that would make for a sick shot. anyway, i gotta finish my assignment now haha, feels weird writing that.
aye i still don't fuck with school but i have an interest and some goals and to achieve one of those goals i need to go through with it so it's what keeps me motivated and makes all this shit worth it, in a way.
i can almost treflip now too, got the scoop and the pop down, just need to polish that landing and im good.