Mary stankmas

so this christmas was fully whatever. thats the perfect word to describe it. whatever.

no tree, nun of that tradition shit

pretty dead

dont get me wrong doe, we had fun, had some friends over at hung out, ate and all that but it was whatever

got some clothes, the gift part of it was that i didnt pay for them, not complaining

still at it with the beats, not so much skate, been slacking for the last two months

i work out now, it feels cool i guess

other than that not much shit, im on vacation now so thats tight

mr robot is a great show

skam too

listening to stay together off of in search of as i type this, nice album

im 18, i should be doing more shit

so many dudes doing big shit and they only 18-19-20-21 (17) in chigga's case but anyways

i feel like i gotta do more, im slacking

finna get it together though

baby doll is playing rn, they used the same drum kits throughout most of the songs. - note to self

ay ay ay ay ay git git trrra

ayy havent been on this shit since like forever and AINT SHIT HAPPEN

on the low i really dont feel like writing but i still am so idek

this new gambino shit fire, i really wanna work with him i am going to 

hes fucking killing Zombies as we speak wtf, he goes so crazy omg

aint recorded shit yet, i listen to too much mumble autotune soundcloud shit atm

like i listen to all the artists i used to listen to before i got into the carti d savage dexter type shit, but rn a bunch more cause idk why fuck u

WAY...

too much shit on my mind right now, summer break, at my pops, he's sleeping loud as fuck, he's chill i guess, same old
got a watch for my birthday, acc got it before but still.. wanted one cause i was tired of my old ass beaded bracelet, and i can't afford a nice watch so that was cool

mother bear threw a surprise party thing for me before i left, that was cool, most of the peers from my class were there and my day 1, Dj

These two days were pretty cool, im talking yesterday and today
Showed dad my beats, he's with it when it comes to music and harmonies and all that and he fucked with my shit, im surprised
actually no im not, i worked hard for the shit that ive made so idc if they're shit or not i love the fuck out of every single one of them
i make them for myself, it keeps me sane and healthy, I hate when i have to post a public song cause then i feel like i have to advertise it in someway
I want to just release shit no preparing, and i do that but still i feel like telling to people to go listen to my stuff and i dont really like that
I actually have like 4 fans now, or like 6-7 i think, like there are actual people who dont know me but take time out of their life to view comment on my shit and what not
Its so tight to me
Its so cold in this fucking room what the fuck

Atill not 18 yet, not looking forward to it still, i wish i had started making shit earlier
Cant complain tho, im almost at a level where i can make reality what i think of in matter of sounds
I hate sampling, even though i samples some songs which came out great, i still hate it
I sampled this italian bitch singing, pretty cool; the track is not getting put out but i still did that shit for myself.

I sent 3 beats to 3 different rappers, only 1 personal connection out of all of them, but i don't care, as long as i get the feeling of business its good.
It's 1st free 2nd payed, even though that might be a bad technique, idc, its what i want to do right now

Writing way too much already but i had to just get some shit off my chest, alright

Soon i'll be seeing my old friends, not sure if im excited enough, i should be more excited
I'm excited to see a.pot and eddy anda few others but those to are really the ones i wann talk to befoe i leave

IMPOWTANT:
Always hang out with People tHat make you feel good and energetic and beautiful and nice and happy do noT force relationships cause i did and its shitty. - Important shit done.

In other news Q's album is out i think, IM GONNA EITHER PRODUCE OR COLLABORATE OR BOTH WITH scHoolboy Q AT SOME POINT IN MY LIFE U WATCH

hooptie

beaucoup

What the fuck is good internet?
It's been over a month since I posted anything, again..

I'm starting to notice that my life isn't that exciting as I thought haha
nah, it's cool

summer break is almost here, finna be 18 in a bit, it's so fucking weird.

Like, whenever I think about becoming 18, I think about the fact that I'm gonna get my drivers license and be able to drive and all that, but at the same time I gotta be on top of all these other things.

I'm probably overthinking the shit out of all this, it's probably gonna be whatever in the end. Still, I can't help but the think wtf I'm gonna do. 

If I think about what I wanna do for the rest of my life, music comes in mind. I can't shake the thought of being a musician, having my own concerts, performing, being in the studio making beats and recording..

I can't see myself being a doctor or a lawyer..

Maybe it's a temporary thing, who knows? Maybe next year I'll wanna be a dentist or something, idk.

Again, I'm just rambling, but so do about 80% of the people on here so it's cool I guess. 

Fuck, I lost my train of thoughts..

- page switch - 

Ok so I was at this party like two weeks ago and let's say I drank a whole lot, to the point of no return. 

To keep it short, cause I don't wanna elaborate too much you feel me, my mom had to come pick me up and I was all fucked up and shit. 

This moment goes down as the cringiest/fucked moment of my life until now. Or actually, it's number 2, there's something else that's number 1 but I'ma go ahead and keep that to myself

for now. 

Alright so whoever is reading this shit have a cool day/night, follow your dreams, doesn't matter how obnoxious or stupid (or genius for that matter) they are. Just try and follow through with something you love and see where the fuck it takes you.
^i should follow my own advice tbh

oh

Maan, I really have nothing to talk about, I was thinking of posting some pictures that i took these days, just take pictures of what i do and what not
I'll do that when i am actually doing something fun and not just sit around doing nothing. I'll see how this goes.

yes

~ Note to self ~

it's lit rn.

beat

got my 2nd beat placement yesterday and started skating again, can still kickflip and got the tre down
this week was lowkey kinda cool, didn't really do much but it was cool nonetheless.

also i recorded something to a beat i found. It's this song called Nicotine. probably coming soon. probably not. you'll see when u see it

Broaden up

You have to broaden up your horizon. There is so much cool shit out there that we sleep on it's uncanny.
I just heard some old balkan music and shit. you know the amount of samples i got out of it?
Actually not that many, but i got some really good ones.
I went to sleep at around 7 am today. I read something about going crazy if you don't sleep for 2-3 days. Tbh i was not myself at 7 am. I was mumbling to myself, just being a zombie. But, i made 2 beats and found some drum packs.
I also received feedback from one of my favorite rappers for reproducing an unreleased track of his. Blessed me with a little gift for making it. So in the end it was tight.

weeknd

Yo The Weeknd gets bitches on the lo lo. Same for Bryson Tiller, Tory Lanez and PND. They keep it lowkey as shit but they get bitches like crazy. I know Weeknd got a girl but still the man gets bitches foreal.
I feel like all these new dudes kinda sing like Trey Songz with the flow of Drake. - quote me on that
Like the shit tight, but you can hear the shit Trey would sing, and the triolet flow that Drake uses when he's bored. I ain't tryna hate cause i bump their shit heavy, but i'm just stating my ignorant opinion.
- other news -
been at a chill party today, like i didn't have to talk to people i didn't like + i met this cool girl and shit.
S for supreme or sum else ~ if you knowz you knowz. keep it on the lowz.

future

collab x T, boogie man, ye, danny, rocky, vince, mac,  kdot, dicky watch

vaporwave

deadass i think i'll try being a cloud rapper and see what comes out of it, like real talk i can make beats like that, know how to edit wavy ass videos and what not, and i can rap so it won't be too hard. i want to see what can come out of it. + i found a spot out here that looks like it could make a sick shot for a music video(that's mainly what inspired me)
i don't have a fucking name yet, or i do, i don't know. at least not a tight one as of now; i don't want of of those yung insert whatever here                       names. i fuck with yung lean and all the sadboys but so many people have started calling themselves yung everything and they've taken the fun out of it. just like they did with dabbing, like that shit was fun to do until all those corny ass people started doing it. like it's not only for young people or nothing but you gotta know you look stupid when you do it, right?
anyway
i found this artist a couple of weeks ago, but i remembered him now. Night Lovell. the dude is fire yo
like i know he does that thing with the pitched down voice and it's why he sounds tighter than usual so to speak but still, he doesn't do that in every song + he has some nice songs with crazy visuals.
https://nightlovell.bandcamp.com/releases   - here's a link to his bandcamp, support him and shit. he produces his own beats too so that kinda gave me some confidence lowkey.
alright i gotta go,stay safe in deez streetz, watch yo back and all that feel me.

cum

fuck coming late to shit

attention

I just read this thing about people writing things for attention and it made me realise how much i hate them, so i'm just gonna rant like a bitchy teenage girl for a couple of minutes and shit. aight
so first off fuck anybody who posts shit like..'like this whatever-whatever and i'll make a video of saying how i feel about you'' - also fuck challenges, never did one never gon do one fuck that.
we do not care my man, chill out with it.
AND POINTLESS ASS STATUSES OUT OF NOWHERE..
LIKE BRO GET A FUCKING TWITTER IF YOU'RE INTO THAT SHIT, THAT SHOULD BE YOUR SPOT. YOU MIGHT GET A FEW CRINGY ASS MF'ERS LIKE YOU TO FAVORITE THAT SHIT. THEN YOU CAN GO AHEAD AND BE CRINGY TOGETHER, TO MAKE YOU FEEL ACCEPTED. THAT'S WHAT MAKES YOU POST THOSE WACK STATUSES IN THE FIRST PLACE RIGHT? bitch


ALSO FUCK PUTTING ' MARGINS ON YOUR INSTAGRAM PICTURES TO MAKE SPACE IN BETWEEN'EM CAUSE IT LOOKS COOL' EITHER DO IT TO THE FULLEST OR DON'T, FOREAL. ALSO YOU NOT CUTER CAUSE YOU CUT SOME OF THE WIDENESS OF THE PIC YOU AIN'T CUTTING OUT YO BODY YOU STILL A FAT BITCH. - AN OLDER FRIEND OF MINE MADE ME HATE THAT SHIT. SHE HAD ME DO IT ONCE AND TRIED TO GET ME INTO THAT SHIT, BUT I SAID NAH.
BTW I DIG SOME GIRLS THAT ARE ON THE BIGGER SIDE TBH BUT LIKE I DON'T CARE BE PROUD ABOUT THAT SHIT OR LOSE WEIGHT, TRAIN, SOMETHING. IT'S NOT THAT HARD.
(unless you have a disease, then do not take what i said in consideration. you should still try doing something about it tho:)

SO STOP DOING SHIT EVERYBODY ELSE DOING, FIRST OFF YOU ARE NOT CUTE STOP AND 2ND OFF YOU'RE CRINGY AF FUCK U. BE A PORNSTAR IF YOU WANT ATTENTION OR DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL.
not talking only about girls either, men out herestraight up looking thirsty and mad at the same time, like how bro? y'all gotta chill the fuck out freal.

alright now i'ma go head and listen to some lil herb with my ignorant ass.





- BTW SOME CLOTHES ARE GONNA COME SOON JUST GOTTA FIND THE RIGHT ERRTHANG FEEL ME?

brazy

ayye cuh i made this beat and it's braazy af on crip
finna get shot for saying that but the beat tight

coming together

haven't been on this for a while, but i feel like i'm getting my act together. slowly, but i am. i started actually reading the material that we are supposed to read. i guess it's homework, i usually never did my homework like that, only if it was very important, they i would do something, but now i've been doing it for 3 days straight. idgaf what you think to me it's progress. i usually don't need to read whatever they give us cause i can talk my way out of anything they ask me so it's usually quiet for homework as far as i'm concerned..or it was i guess.

the best thing about it is that i didn't even plan it. i just kinda started doing a spanish translation thing once and then i thought 'why don't i try to do everything that i have to do for tomorrow and see what happens'. shit felt good tbh. i wasn't insecure and it felt pretty tight i can't lie.
although i do my homework now(really want to see how long i can keep up and shit) it's still my last priority. i've been doing the shit at 11-2am  for the past 3 days. it's cool though i'm used to not getting much sleep.
-side note-
i feel like i evolved with my beats. i learned to mix a bit better now and i feel confident about the way i lay drums and chords. i kinda trained myself to not doubt something if i feel like it sounds good. actually, i didn't train myself. it really just naturally came, its tight.
-side note 2-

i want to buy a sony handycam and film some shit, maybe make music videos for some of my favorite songs, just cause. i found this really cool place that would make for a sick shot. anyway, i gotta finish my assignment now haha, feels weird writing that.
aye i still don't fuck with school but i have an interest and some goals and to achieve one of those goals i need to go through with it so it's what keeps me motivated and makes all this shit worth it, in a way.
i can almost treflip now too, got the scoop and the pop down, just need to polish that landing and im good.

new year

so its 2016 and people are still ignorant as always. i guess that will never go away.
-page switch-
i was at this bomb ass new years eve party and shit, got drunk, got a lil hoochie mamma pregnant, and ended up sleeping outside my house on a patio chair thing in the so called garage thing, because i couldn't get the fucking door open. it was tight tho; felt like a movie scene or some shit. my mom woke me up at about 5 am cause she was supposed to go to work...that shit was so awkward. i acted all tired and just got inside and in the bed. haven't talked for two days almost. only the basic talk haha. just yesterday we kinda forgot about it and started acting cool around each other again.
oh i had to go to work at 9 am that morning but i woke up at around 11am and had to go through that panicky annoying phase when you wake up late for something. i went anyways and kinda did my thing. there were two of us thank god and he kinda did the most, i just walked around the kitchen, and shit. good times

smh

real talk if you act cool with a friend of yours when no other dudes are around, but when there are you kinda ditch them because of whatever reason you got, keep in mind that your friend will curve you, cause you're a bitch.
 - i was a bitch at some point cause i did this once but it was in like 6-7th grade when dudes were supposed to do that shit, but like why tf do you still do that like you're not that important, chill